Didn't Get In

...to PCC's nursing program. FML. Seriously, FML. Two schools declined to admit me to their nursing program and now...what am I going to do? Well, I guess I'm going to move on to my contingency plans. I am going to take chemistry and statistics and prepare myself to apply to Linfield and OHSU's bachelors nursing programs for 2015. I am going to research different CNA programs and choose one to go to so I can get certified and get some experience. In other words, I am going to do whatever I can in the mean time to make myself a more qualified candidate and ensure that I'll get in to a nursing program next year. 

Oh, and, you know...work on making another baby. We've talked about that, and, both Alberto and I are on the same page with it. Although we're both still heavily affected by the loss of Jeslyn and we want nothing more than to bring her back and to have her here with us...the fact still remains: we long to add to our family. So, we will. Eventually. 

But, for now...I am just left feeling uneasy and scared. About our future and about where we're headed. Damn limbo - I know it all too well, and, I am sick and tired of it. Really. Crossing my fingers and hoping that somehow, I get a call from one of the programs I am waitlisted for and end up going to nursing school this fall.

Here's hoping...