You know when you take a test and it could go either one of two ways: a. you aced it or b. you totally failed it? Well, that's exactly how I feel my microbiology final exam went today. I was so stressed out leading up this test. Why, you ask? Well...I knew it was going to be 100 questions, plus some short answer essays. SERIOUSLY?!?? I had no idea how in the hell I was going to even finish the exam, let alone do well on it. However, I did get some good news on Friday regarding the essay portion being extra credit. But, still...100 questions in 1 hour and 50 minutes? That's a feat for me, because I am a slow test taker. I also have test taking anxiety, so, that doesn't bode well for me either. To make matters worse, I ended up talking a lot about Jeslyn to my classmate (who is also going through losing a baby). Its never a bad thing to talk about Jeslyn...especially to another baby loss mama. But, I got super emotional, cried, and generally couldn't concentrate on studying. No fault of my classmate - but, you know, not the greatest thing to have happen when you're trying to study for an exam.
Anyway, it's over now and I did the best I can do. I'm sure I likely didn't ace it, and, probably didn't do well enough to get an A in the course either. And, that's OK because getting an A was never my goal. With everything that's been going on in my life, I just wanted to at least get a B. I think I did well enough to do that (I only needed a 69% on the final to maintain my current B), so, that's a win for me. What I do know is...it's officially SUMMERTIME FOR ME!!!! Even better, Alberto and I leave for Mexico (a solo vacation...can you believe it?) in 5 days!!
The second I walked out of class and dropped the load of stress that has been on my shoulders, this song popped into my head ;-)
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