15 Weeks

...that's how long it's been. It's been 15 weeks since I lost my baby. I can't believe that it's been that long since that horrific day, and, my Jeslyn has been gone now longer than she was alive.

I'm feeling it today. I feel the weight of losing my baby and the weight of facing life without her in a fierce way.

I miss you, Jeslyn. Mommy misses you so much.

...and I love you. More than any words in a sentence can ever say. 

I wish, with every fiber in my being that you were still here with me...

safe in my tummy, growing, thriving, and...living. 

Although you rest safely in the heavens above, know that you will

always live on in spirit. In my heart and in my memory. You will

forever be my baby girl and I will forever be your mommy.